My Balance Disorder

I can no longer ride a bicycle. The last time I tried, I fell down, broke my arm, and had to go to the hospital. 

A balance disorder is a disturbance that causes an individual to feel unsteady, for example when standing or walking. It may be accompanied by feelings of giddiness, or wooziness, or having a sensation of movement, spinning, or floating. Balance is the result of several body systems working together: the visual system (eyes), vestibular system (ears), and proprioception (the body's sense of where it is in space). Degeneration or loss of function in any of these systems can lead to balance deficits.

Two days ago, I went shopping, putting my groceries in a two-wheel shopping cart. While I was putting the groceries in the refrigerator, I fell down and could not get up. I did not panic, just laid there on that cold tile floor, for a while. No perment damage was done. 

Ray bought me a folding cane, a clever thing that helps me keep my balance. 

I might buy a Trike, a three-wheel bicycle, but they cost $400., and will have to be assembled. 

Mostly Mental

This is what the Pandemic has done to us. It has messed up our minds. 

It has messed up our bodies also, but it seems to me, our minds are worse off.

At least mine is. 

I have been desperately trying to act normal, or at least find out what the New Normal is. 

I buy a lot online and many of my orders are messed up too. 

Even Amazon has lost its mind, and the harder they try, the worse they get.

The Ambiguous Life

 What is the best life? 

At one time, we used to give some serious thought to this, and then acted on what was thought best. 

This is no longer our strategy, and I am not sure what our strategy is. But is more short-range in time and distance. And amounts to many strategies in many places. 

The Importance of Intelligence

This was brought home to me when my brother lost consciousness and his wife did not know what was wrong with him - and didn't want to know, because thinking was too hard for her. 

When We compare Ourselves to Computers

We cannot help feeling inferior. They can do so much, and do it so well! 

Ourselves, being living beings, are plagued with parasites who want everything we have. We have to scramble to stay alive. 

In fact, this what makes us valuable: we are alive, something unusual in the Universe! And we need to appreciate that. 

All too often, we do not. And consider it a handicap instead. 

Experts at Explaining Nothing

My brother has something wrong with him, but my family cannot tell me what it is. The last I heard, they were going to drill two holes in his head, one on each side to relieve the pressure buildup, because he could not talk. 

The next day, when I was eagerly waiting for the latest news, they had changed the subject, without being aware of this. 

Meanwhile, I am watching a free programming course, where everything is being carefully explained. 

Two kinds of people are at work here, one can explain, and one cannot. 

My Balance Disorder

When this acts up, I end up on the ground. Or, as in the case yesterday, on the tile floor of my kitchen. Unable to get up. 

So I just laid there until I could get up. Realizing I would have to see my neurologist again. 

Old age (84) is no fun.